[throwaway0x69AF]

Yes, and that's why I take small doses infrequently. I took a few months off because I was doing that much better, but the intrusive thoughts came back. But overall. No, my brain is fucked and tells me to kill myself every day; I don't need that abuse. Those brain cells deserve to die. More serious take: my quality of life is improved by an order of magnitude. I didn't want to survive another decade in that condition, but now I do. That's worth the risk