[zdragnar]

I was like that. Managed to get off of antidepressants for probably 6 or 8 years, and thought that I had an introspective enough personality that I could be aware of, and condition myself to, not have a recurrence which required going back on them.

It came on so slowly that I didn't really notice, and most people around me who you would imagine should have noticed also did not. I finally hit a breaking point, and started therapy and medicine again. It has completely changed my life around, and possibly saved it.

Would I like to live without it? Well, I would like to not need it, but if it is a given that I do, then I most certainly will continue using it. I've experienced the alternative, and there is nothing preferable about it.