[negativez]

You're assuming that there is a platonic ideal 'you' that the living person you are should be compared against. Ask yourself if you believe that statement. It doesn't make any sense to me.

If we can generously interpret the underlying desire as: "How can I live in the way that will make me happiest with myself?" then it's not complicated:

- Reflect on what you want for yourself as the person you are right now

- Consider how your recent actions do or do not support those goals

- Do this again next week, forever