[clanrebornwow]

Recently I made a successful company broke up with girlfriend. She always used to make me beg for little things while freely spent whatever was possible on my cards, living on my dime and still ignoring me. Always busy on her Instagram, replying to comments made by her fans bla bla. And with so called boyfriend has couldn't even share a paragraph of text on instant messenger let alone finding time for intimacy or dialogue.

I'd write her paragraphs of text and at the end she will reply with a single word. Even when in front of her, she would be busy with her own thing.

I've lost interest in women since then.

It's better to be alone than have a false sense of companionship. Sure others around me might think how successful I am and how I've one hot gal, damnn I never met someone as self obsessive as her

This is my experience so far, not onces or twice, 4 times already.

These days everyone is also self obsessed.

I just want realistic sex dolls, so no one is able to manipulate me in lieu of sex.

I feel incredibly sad and lonely, and now i am very bitter too. I argument and verbally attack people.

I also hate myself now, nights and weekends are incredibly painful and lonely.

I am gravitating towards drug abuse, hell I was a guy who wouldn't even smoke or drink. On the outside, people see a successful man with nice car/house and inside it's a demon which they don't know about and can attack them anytime.

[dTal]

Not all women are like that. 4 women in a row is more than just bad luck. I'm sorry to say this, and it may be a bitter pill to swallow, but you yourself are doing something to attract this kind of person.

If I had to guess, off the basis of this single comment, it is trying to attract women with your success instead of your personality. You mention how successful you are three times in your comment, despite it being tangential to your point. This is the kind of behavior that puts off genuine people, but attracts shallow girls interested in using you for your money.

[throwaway18558]

Throwaway for privacy.

First of all, props to you for being honest with yourself about your frustration. Many people turn their bad experiences into anger that sits inside and ferments into a dangerous and unhealthy brew. Recognizing what's happening to yourself is an important step in changing yourself and your situation. Saying these kinds of things publicly can often bring ridicule or condemnation, but I think it's important to start by forgiving yourself for feeling this way, because it's natural and not doing so will just make you hate yourself more. The way you feel is understandable, what you do with it is what will define you as a person.

Anyway, I've had some bad experiences with relationships as well and the thing that is helping the most is therapy. I highly recommend it, it is the best money I ever spent and I think of it as an investment in my future, similar to putting money in a 401k.

I don't recommend hookers like a sibling comment did, not for moral reasons but because I don't think it'll solve your problem. I'm also lonely and often just wish I could have sex, and I can relate to what you say about wishing a sex doll could just replace your bed for a real woman. But then I had some opportunities for no-strings-attached sex and learned something about myself : turns out I want intimacy, not just sex. For many of us, sex in our minds represents an emotional connection we crave. And having sex with someone who doesn't care about you feels like shit when what you really need is someone in your life who gives a damn.

But maybe you have to learn that for yourself, and maybe your experience will be different than mine. If you're going to try transactional intimacy, maybe start with something a bit less extreme like lapdances from strippers. You might learn something about yourself. And depending on whether you are, there's less legal risk and certainly less health risk involved.

In any case, I do believe that it's possible to get to a better place. My experience was that therapy worked best, YMMV. Good luck.

[devit]

That's not a girlfriend, it's someone taking advantage of you.

My suggestion is to read "Models: Attract Women though Honesty", by far the best book on how to be a better man, and possibly the best bet on changing your thought processes for the better (in addition to therapy, possibly).

If you feel like you really need sex to be happy, hire escorts: the ones that are well reviewed online are generally far better people than the women you describe, and will deliver what you agree upon with no manipulation.

[godelmachine]

Except that escorts will charge you a lotta money.

Also, would you please post a web link on where escorts are reviewed?

[jfk13]

Keeping a "girlfriend" such as clanrebornwow's will also cost you a lotta money, in addition to the psychological cost. At least with escorts the transaction is clearer and better-defined.

I expect Google can help you out with "escort reviews <location>" for wherever your area of interest happens to be.

[clanrebornwow]

If honestly could attract women, wouldn't homeless people have got girlfriends too?

See it's easy to fool ourselves believing that people are after who we are instead of the reality, people are after what we've.

People/Society look down on escorts, my parents will kill me or kill themselves with shame if they figured out I am doing hookers/escort.

Even if you do escorts, if condom breaks u are fucked, congrats now you've STD. Recommending hookers/escorts is not the best thing.

Job equality is to blame here, and social media which has commercialised beauty of women, and made them local to everyone not just you.

So now a person in another continent can flirt with my girlfriend and steal her literally keeping her busy with his sweet talks.

[vertex-four]

Many homeless people do have partners. I’m not sure why you assume they don’t.

[Beefin]

Hey man, send me a PM, I know what you’re going through after living in a similarly-superficial environment. It’s just important to understand cognitive biases and how it perceives our outlook on the world.

Needless to say, if you continue to have that mentality it will only continue with a self fulfilling prophecy.

CBT would be an effective technique to help you learn about these thought processes and address them at their core. Often the crux of the problem isn’t as transparent as you’d think.

Take care !