[throwawayIn2019]

I think about this too. Is this a temporary feeling?

My wife read your comment and said "I don't know if your dedication would fade."

She remembers when we were first together and I was selling my software off to a company. I had only been in Silicon Valley for 2 weeks when we met. I hadn't ever had a Starbucks and for some reason I walked by one and stopped in....what a cute Barista.

Thank you. I think I need to really consider where I am at in life and if there is a way to satisfy us both.

[happppy]

This may not be temporary. Your might not fade but there comes a point in your life when you can't fulfill your passion like old age, or some accident(I shouldn't say this) and at this point, you will need your wife or vice versa. So look for workarounds.