[fsloth]

I don't know if this helps you deal with your situation but this is how I would respond if someone asked do I enjoy coding (delivering software is my profession, bread and butter and I code in my spare time as well now and then).

Personally I originally thought coding as something wonderfull akin to music or poetry. Ok, that got me hooked and started. Now as I've matured a bit I see coding (i.e. the typing part where you manually define the syntax tree with some specific language) mostly as ... typing. What nowadays gives me the kicks is the thing that I create by coding and the concepts I can study.

I get no joy in coding, unless I am building something that delivers value. The value can be end user value, personal learning or just a glint of beauty.

But, no, I would say I enjoy just "coding" anymore. To me it feels like asking from a literary author do they enjoy typing. It's a part of process of creating value, but only a part of the process.

When I code in my spare time I don't think I spent the time coding. I think I spent it investigating an algorithm, or delivering a fun software, or solving a math puzzle.