[clickme_zsh]

Can suicidal thoughts on daily basis categorized as depression or just a phase of life? I feel very disappointed at my current life condition and I feel like dying from the inside and feel numb sometimes. I cant afford a therapist at the moment but a lot of people are shrugging my issues as phase of life and I cant help it but feel dejected.

[klyrs]

I have a similar story. It wasn't a phase. It was a daily occurrence for 2 decades. On a good day, it's easy to tell that voice to go to hell. On a day with depressive triggers... those suggestion cut deep, and deepened every spiral I'd find myself on.

I found a clean source, I get it tested independently. I take a few milligrams once every 1-4 weeks, depending on my stress / trauma load. Early on, I'd take some whenever the voice came back. Now I've learned what the edge feels like, I dose early enough to maintain silence.

I understand why pharmaceutical companies wanna keep this as a last resort. I've seen the treatment programs -- they're k-hole doses; nothing like what's been working for me. But there's no profit regimines like mine. And maybe it won't work more often than a placebo. But it's worked for me and that's what matters.

[simonsaidit]

Think it’s quite normal to have issues as a phase of life. Regular Suicidal thoughts is however something to take seriously. But dealing with issues for me took breaking a bad pattern and progressively working towards a better goal. Earl nightingale “the strangest secret” is worth watching... for me what he speaks has become true. Things I know for a fact takes bad thinking away is Changa but it’s something you either neeed to educate yourself in very thoroughly or have guidance. Most other drugs are too dangerous for most especially if you are in a fragile state. Breaking bad patterns can be things like getting away from a girlfriend, having a new job, getting a new interest, o finding the place where people will listen to you ... for me slacklining did wonders as it’s almost like meditating.

[clickme_zsh]

What is slacklining? and Changa?

[simonsaidit]

https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Slacklining

Walking on a line of dynamic webbing that kind of forces you to not to think about anything else.

https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Changa_(drug)

I have a post somewhere else in this thread where I describe it.

[clickme_zsh]

Thanks!