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First, you CAN do a lot of things and you ARE intelligent. You're also brave for asking here and I hope you're getting some helpful answers! I think one thing you'll have to come to terms with is your lies about the past. It may be the kind of thing you don't mention again and just move on from, or if it comes up in the future it might benefit from you being a little more honest with people. Impostor Syndrome is a very real thing for people in our industry just because the world is changing so fast, so you'll likely deal with Impostor Syndrome yourself at a number of times in your life/career. This post might be an example of that kind of thing - you feel like a fake when you think other people know what they're doing, and you're an imposter, and if people find out, you'll be out of there. That's not true, and a lot of people struggle with these feelings over many years. The good news is that the solution to impostor syndrome is being honest with people. Don't be afraid to reveal what you _dont_ know or _cant_ do to people. That will help. Now for the question of "are you smart enough to CS or STEM work" I'm going to say: YES. The fact that you're here, asking in what might be a second language to you, and the intellect you're showing just in what you said all show me that you have a good brain. The field of CS, and STEM is very vast, there are TONS of options, and tons of roles. You mentioned you ran up against a wall with C++. Me too right when I started, you got farther than me :D You should try something a little more forgiving like JavaScript. It's got tons of practical applications, you could build websites, apps for your phones, desktop apps, server-side apps. I'd suggest taking a more casual approach to programming and try to play with it, and be creative with it, rather than just studying it seriously. And in the meantime while you're 'struggling', thank your parents for sheltering you and having patience, and trusting you. They've been invested in you for two decades already, and I'm sure they want to see you spread your wings and soar as an adult. You'll get there! They can help :D |