[drywater]

You will never stop being treated as a machine, especially in big corp.

As for the anxiety, stop trying so hard. Your goal is to find people that you actually like. You can’t really be friends with people that you despise or have nothing in common with.

Look for what people say or do in common areas as a kitchen or a chat and try to relate without pushing yourself.

Play the game on your own terms and keep in mind that it’s not really a competition. You’re trying to have fun.