[slimshady94]

I can empathize with your struggle.

>Anything that requires interaction with people makes me want to avoid it even if I actually want/need it

I used to think this was some rare personality defect or freak in my education/formative years. I later realized that it meant I was simply a bit shy/too accommodating of other people/not confident enough in myself to speak. Perhaps you can get over it by resolving to be more courageous and not shy away/put in the effort for interaction. It's an effort for sure - it takes brain cycles and effort to interact with others. Some people get this easier because of practice (through family/friends) and I basically assume I didn't get enough practice in childhood. TLDR; don't over-think it :)

[throwaway577]

Yeah, I definitely think that I lack confidence in social situations but too often it's just too much and I withdraw almost completely.