[appletrotter]

I can tell that logically you understand what you did was wrong, but all the subtext in your writing points to you desperately trying to blame something else (society, drinking, the victims being underage) when the blame really falls squarely on you. Even though you say that you know did wrong, you don't actually sound sorry, and it's very obvious. I would believe, having read that, that you think that you're a victim. You're not. You're the predator of this story. No improvement of any kind will be met through this frame you've constructed. You need to actually accept the facts. Actually.

[_sdegutis]

I've had to deal with this nightmare living in my head for almost 10 years now. I've accepted that it's my fault, and in no way am I trying to place blame on anything else. All the choices I made were wrong. It was wrong of me to drink when I was stressed about work. It was wrong of me to turn to adrenaline tactics to relieve stress too. It was wrong of me to flash teenage girls. It was wrong of me to try to get a software job when I knew I wasn't qualified for it. It was wrong of me to tease my family with a middle class life I realistically knew all along that I couldn't afford. It was wrong of me to not quit from my jobs when I knew I wasn't doing well enough at them. Everything here was my fault and in no way am I avoiding responsibility for any of it. This blog post is an obituary of my software career. It's written from that perspective.

[LaurenceW1]

This! It is incredible that no one else so far has commented on this. I read the post and it seems that there is no accountability. What of your victims? The emotional toll of being sexually harassed can follow someone for the rest of their lives.

[_sdegutis]

The thought of that was on my mind for a very long time. But the fact that I have no money coming in and no money planned is starting to take over all my thoughts. I'm in a giant panic and this blog post was written from that perspective.