| I had several other pseudonyms that I use to use. One of them had half a million youtube views and thousands of subs associated with a game I used to play and I used to make guides read my hundreds of thousands of people and translated in multiple languages, I ended up deleting any association I had with it since I moved on with my life. I had another pseudonym where I was one of the most richest players in a mmo with several million players. I used to post guides on how to make virtual money. I long since parted with that one too. I also had another pseudonym account where I partially managed one of the largest online collaborations ever done, ironically I don't even tell people about that either. I look up that username and I see it referenced in the major news outlets. I had another pseudonym that had too much namespace tech buzzwords associated with it, it was my github account, so I had to rename all my accounts to this one. In another pseudonym, I had some batshit crazy moments in my life. It mostly stemmed from never talking about anything I did in the above, among other things. Because of some social stigmas at the time I couldn't really go see a psychiatrist. I ended up writing a 100,000 word post to myself, so I could learn more about why I have these insecurities. I learned about the things holding me back in my life, my regrets, etc. It mostly had to deal with superiority complex because I did lots of crazy impressive shit that no one knew in high school. I realized that growing up as well I maintained dual personalities (online and real life) from elementary to high school. Also, it was because I had multiple hidden disabilities that not even my family knew about. For the longest time I never accepted that fact. I ended up deleting that pseudonym one out too. I don't know why but I've always had issues with attaching my name to a pseudonym. Maybe I'm paranoid, I don't know. I just have never been the type of person to showcase my work. I actually took some pride in that. I learned the hardway at my first job I ever had when I got fired from it, how its not what you do but how you showcase it But, I made this pseudonym with the intent purpose that anyone who dug far enough can find my real name if they wanted too. But I also have insecurities about publishing things about my life, work, etc and I started as of last week to publish it openly. Mostly because I recently also decided to go to local tech meetups. I didn't realize that random people found things I do actually interesting. I have tons of interesting things I want to blog about but I don't know if it might haunt me later legally. My writing sometimes suffers as a result of privacy paranoia. I grew up dealing with legal issues my entire life so I'm always thinking of worst case scenarios. I also intend on making youtube / DIY tutorials as well, am strongly considering setting away this pseudonym so I can have something more marketable. With my face on every video, etc. I feel like a lot of my potential is wasted if no one knows about it. I don't know if that helps you out or not. Truthfully, online identities and whatever is just whitehat and blackhat SEO at the end of the day. What has helped me is accepting and appreciating the old identity(s) for what it was. So long that I accept it is what matters the most. Also, accepting the fact that no one is truthfully going to dig that far deep, unless its the government,SO, an internet troll, someone that really hates you, or a recruiter. My name is considered fairly common so even if I hit the news nothings going to change. I don't think your being silly here. Also this was very painful for me to write too. Just be grateful you aren't caught doing stupid stuff in public that went viral, etc. Or incarcerated, wrong place at wrong time in the eyes of the law, etc. That could seriously hurt your prospects in life. |