[taxicabjesus]

> It’s over.

This depends on which philosophic overview is correct. If the physicalists are basically right, and conciousness is a result of chemical processes, self-exterminating would indeed end your predicament.

But if the animists are correct, self-terminating your current physical body won't actually solve anything for you. You'll go through a period of "confusion", then a life review. Eventually you'll have to start over: gestation, birth, a few years of being basically helpless... Hopefully you can avoid the pitfalls you've experienced this time, next time around.

Sticking with your current body, and figuring your way out of your predicament, is actually much easier than starting over from scratch. Help is always available, if you seek it out: 'ask, and ye shall receive, search and the door shall be opened to you.'

Recommended reading: Far Journeys, by Robert Monroe.

[ripsawridge]

+1. There are other ways of looking at what you are and what this world might be. You are defining yourself by what you appear to be here. You are much more.

What if the meaning of your life right now is to have lost the thread of meaning? You are traversing a knife-edged ridge. I wish you good will, and come safely through.