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I don't know how much good advice I have, but I've been in a similar situation, so I can at least offer sympathy. I spent three years building up my translation work to get "self sponsorship" and then got dumped by the agency that was sponsoring and providing the bulk of my work. Now I'm back working in-house at a Japanese company. I don't regret having taken a shot at self employment, even if it was a little over optimistic. And at least I know what I was doing wrong. So I say just take it calmly and do what you have to do to stay here and keep working and at the end of the day it's all still forward progress.