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That really sucks - being tired of people you don't know looking down on you. Let's take this further. Let's say there's a Googler looking down on you for not working in Google - there's a Googler looking down on that person for working on a "low priority" project. If there's a Googler looking down on someone for working on the "wrong" project, then someone's looking down that Googler for selling their life 50 hours a week at a time. Everyone is looked down on in some manner - even Warren Buffet or Bill Gates who might be looked down upon for being old. It never ends. Anyway, there's nothing you can do about it - except to stop looking down on "mid tier conference", "second tier" hires, "2nd or third tier companies", and that would help a lot. It would improve the world only marginally but it would do tremendous good for yourself. It's your act of looking down on others that's causing your anxiety of being looked down upon. The injury originates from your own thoughts to others. Pick any thing in the world, for certain dimensions (height, length, attractiveness, intelligence, etc...) and you can put it on the "negative" end, and make disparaging comments against it, or you can put it on the "positive" end and give it praise. Once you've placed it on the "negative" end of the scale, the "positive" end suddenly comes into existence. And once you've placed it on the "positive" end, a whole swarth of other objects now fall on the "negative". If we praise a Googler for getting into Google, suddenly we see less value in engineers who did not get into Google. If we disparage a person for being short, then we see more value in others who are tall. Both are different sides of the same coin. Refrain from criticism and praise. It's the act of comparing that leads us to suffer. Would you rather be the "top Googler" and so miserable to be entertaining suicidal thoughts, which to me looks like where you're heading if you continue thinking the way you are, or a someone who is much more happy with whatever he's doing than doing what straw man Googler's do? And please see a doctor. |