[heckanoobs]

It sounds like you live for the future but don't have any vision of what that future is or know why you are trading your time now for time later.

You could try living in the present more. Alan Watts' The Book is a good way to explore that perspective shift, if you enjoy reading philosophy.

If not, try questioning your assumptions and getting out of your comfort zone a bit. The prison exists because we forget that we made the walls and the bars.