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I can kind of relate to this. Actually I have a tendency of being depressed since I can think straight but I managed pretty well. But as well I know since I'm aware of the concept of 9-5 - I guess with the age of 12 or so - I am pretty sure I cannot stand this monotony.

Fast forward 8 years: I'm happy to be out of school. Studying is very tough but Physics in University is actually more interesting than anything in school. 5 years later I'm finished with my studies, there was some tragedy in the family and I'm heavily depressed and little confused.

Actually I wished I had taken a year off, taking some random job that barely pays me and enjoy myself the rest of the time.

Stupid as I was I still continued to work part-time and the other half of my time I co-found a startup. Afterwards I take on a 9-5 job in another city where I know nobody, all my colleagues being significantly older than me and slowly but surely life got more and more dull.

Another 8 years later and I find myself in a fundamental tone of being depressed, although I have truly enjoyable times at least once a week. Luckily I also work part time since a year, that definitely helped.

Let me repeat myself: if you feel 9-5 isn't for you and you feel overwhelmed, take some time off and enjoy yourself. You'll never gonna be that young again. (Also it is indeed possible to work part-time as an Enginner but expect job search being at least 10 times tougher and longer.)