[martkaru]

Ignore the vacation, hobbies and meditation nonsense mentioned here. You need to attack the core of your problems.

You need to delegate, but before that, I think you need to think through your company's structure and have a clear separation of roles and responsibilities. You are saying you are the ceo but also do engineering in a ~20 person mostly dev-oriented team, that all might point to badly defined roles/responsibilities.

There are classically 5 roles in every company (some companies might have less, some more) - 1. the visionary (the person who has the crazy ideas and looks more into the future) 2. the integrator (CEO) 3. head of operations (the product/service you are developing and/or running) 4. head of admin/finance 5. head of sales/marketing

Each of those roles should be filled with one person. That person is also the single one to be responsible for performing in that role in that area. All the other roles should not micromanage the other role's responsibility areas. The role of the ceo is to work on the company systems and see that all of the "heads" are ticking ok (kpi-s are met, tasks have been done, etc) and communication is in place. Smaller companies can also assign multiple roles to a single person.

If that kind of structure is in place, it is much easier to delegate.