[alexashka]

We'll certainly never know. We never knew, we never will.

You are living out a simulation right now, as is everyone else - the human experience simulation they call it. That's your reality, mine is my human experience reality.

The dread you feel is a more mature version of suspecting the Santa Clause is not real. It feels nice to believe in someone who brings presents for no reason, once a year, but the reality is much nicer - your parents care about you enough to bring you that wonderful experience :)

So it is with 'truth' - outgrowing the simplistic notion of truth can be very gratifying indeed, but the process can feel dreadful at times.