[tinymollusk]

I'm very sorry that you have to suffer through this alone. All I can offer is my electronic compassion -- I hope you are able to find even 1 small thing in this world that brings you joy. Sometimes that seed can flower into something beautiful :).

I also encourage you to post part or all of your story tomomrrow. I look forward to reading it.

[hestipod]

I do have a cat that brings me joy lest I sound joyless. She is often less appreciative of our relationship and I fear I may simply be a carefully manipulated treat dispenser in her eyes, but I love her anyway. Thanks for the compassion in any form.