[space_fountain]

I definitely do the best I can, but as someone sort of in this position I worry that I'm becoming a worse programmer for it.

I'm junior enough that I often don't know what to do. I've never gotten really good at full unit testing for example. I really do think in situations like this my best bet is trying to find somewhere where they follow better practices.

[zamber]

Imitation is the best form of flattery but you can also be proactive in your learning how to write better. Read code that's open-source and solves similar issues for a similar case in the same tech stack. Understand the architecture and conventions. Understand where the codebase has areas for improvement.

Before you learn about types of hammers and nails learn when to use which one.

The problem with more senior people is that they can lack the time and motivation to teach you so until you don't own the problem yourself pushing it to "ppl don't want to teach me :(" will not do anything.

Also, practice makes perfect and good coding practices tend to be somewhat universal.