[thereyougo123]

I love doing board games. You are in company but you have rules that guide the interaction. Board games are especially fun if you are playing together against the game.

Edit: As others have noted meditation can be helpful. This may help you realize what you really need in your current situation. But it is not a silver bullet. I personally recommend doing this in company once in a while and keeping a safety distance to "preachers of principles".

I really hope that you find your way.