[creep]

I find I don't value social constructions near as much as I used to as well. For me it's because I realized there is something inside me. In deep trance I can see it as a blue fire. And it feels like this blue fire is more real than any insecurity or any external pursuit, and yet it drives my external pursuits so that my choices become clearer and I am less confused. It just feels real, while often our modern world feels like brittle plastic.