[adekok]

It's incredible to read your story. I'm sorry for what you went through.

It also re-affirms my belief about the solution:

> But I decided to do no harm. I started thinking about it as a sort of superpower I have, one that must be used with great care and responsibility.

i.e. Accept it, and deal with it.

This is huge. Most sufferers find that impossible. Because....

> you have to acknowledge and face the pain you've caused, which can result in unbearable guilt.

It can get better. Living a quiet life is better than a life full of extreme highs and lows. It feels emptier, because it isn't full of drama. But it's how most people live.