[tchaffee]

You should get some help with your terror of these conversations. Having learned a couple of languages myself, and having tried just about everything, I have to agree with the author of the app that getting into real conversations is by far the fastest way to learn a language. Nothing comes anywhere close. The other tools like spaced repetition via Anki or another tool, are somewhat important. But they just help reinforce what you learn via conversation.

It can be done. I used to get nervous in a private business meeting with more than two people. Through practice and pushing myself I've made it all the way to speaking in public in front of hundreds of people on many occasions. Tackle your fear of these conversations first because it's an important life skill. I'm not saying you have to make it all the way to public speaking. But at least get very comfortable with small talk among a few people. There are even courses for it. Then learn a new language after.