[Mz]

I'm a former military wife and made my peace with my own mortality some years back, during a serious health crisis in my 30s. And I lived when I should have died because I spent about 3.5 years in constant, excruciating please kill me now pain and I reached a point where reducing the pain was all that mattered. I was fine with it if my attempts to hurt less caused me to die quicker. (But, they didn't. They put me on a path back to health. Go figure.)

So, I hear ya. I hate hurting. I'm not afraid of death, though.