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Not sure if I can call it a bad habit or not, but my relationship suffers because of it, and not sure if my relationship will remain for much longer because of it, but it has kind of been an instigated behavior. Basically, once we past our honeymoon phase, she wants attention and affection sometimes, but not always, usually when she wants it. Other times, she tells me to go away or that she's not in the mood for that. She can be very emotional and other times, very distant, kind of similar to me. It is hard to find a balance or understand that balance. Feeling rejected, I turn to the coding world, get lost in my web apps, and that feeling of rejection lasts for days sometimes so I get so wrapped up in what I'm doing that I don't give her attention or affection when she wants it because that rejection made me prioritise my coding over her. It has been a cycle.. we'll argue about it, and then things will go back to normal, and I'll give her the attention and affection she craves.. then she basically wants me to go away and come back when she wants, rinse and repeat. So I'd have to say my Internet addiction, which is really my coding addiction kicks in. Instead of gaming, I turn to coding, because I feel its more productive than just sitting around gaming. I build both free- and paid- web apps, and I can't just sit there or lie there doing nothing.. it drives me crazy to not be tinkering with something. And sometimes she does get upset with me because I do have to try and focus my brain on watching a movie or a show with her instead of thinking about coding something. I can't sleep at night until I'm tired, so instead of just lying there, or taking some type of pills or whatever, I code until I'm exhausted instead, which means I'm not "sleeping with her" and I think she gets upset about that too. I know some guys will say, "If I had a woman.. I'd always... I'd treat her...." Yup... me too. Past the honeymoon phase where you get to know her, live with her, deal with her bullshit, bad habits and attitude, and get back to me on that one. |