[johnny99]

I love you for writing this. I spent thirty years either trying and failing to fix myself, or being misdiagnosed (turns out treating bipolarity with antidepressants can do more harm than good). It wasn't until I had kids that I tried once again to get out of my hole, and got correct treatment. Luckily my kids were still little and the only dad they'll know is someone much better equipped to to be fully present and loving for them, in a way that was often buried before.

To anyone needing help, if it's easier to take action for someone else, do it for their sake. And hopefully you'll see that it's ok to have given yourself that kindness too.