[tudorconstantin]

My personal estimate (after 11 years of professional fullstack web development) is that about 80% of web development is doing some variations of CRUD screens. Create that CRUD app, publish it on github and let the possible employers know that you can do at least the 80% of the daily tasks. With a github repo and a project on your cv, you'll be in the top 5% candidates that don't have any work experience. There's a much bigger need in the market for devs who can do CRUD apps than for devs who can architect and implement rendering engines.

Change jobs. There are jobs that pay similarly to a bike messenger, or maybe even more, but are less demanding, like a night shift security agent at auto dealerships. You could even take your laptop with you and work on your projects.