[jaredhansen]

drop me a line. email in profile. I don't know if I can help at all, but will try.

Don't give up. Don't give in, to despair or otherwise. There's a better world out there for you, it exists, and nobody can make it disappear (or take it away from you because of your family, your past, or whatever). I don't want to overpromise as I'm short on time as well, but ping me and I will try to help.

[mping]

This is what you need to do. Find someone to guide you and follow through the advice. I already did something similar for my friend who used to work in a music shop.