[martijn_himself]

I'm in a similar situation but I work in 'enterprise' software development. What makes you hate your job? It seems you are very skilled in various areas and others seem to recognize and value your skills- that seems to me something to be proud of instead of feeling guilty! Is it the pressures that come with the job?

[dschulz]

Yes, I think my discomfort comes mostly from that. And from realizing that I'm getting older, with too many responsibilities and less time each day in a path with no return. At this point I even doubt switching to a software dev job would be satisfying for me anymore.