[Mz]

Let me suggest you sit down with a piece of paper and write up four to six scenarios. Either best and worst for both choices, or best, worst and "most likely" for both scenarios. You may find that one choice has better outcomes in all cases or that the worst case scenario for one is so bad that it makes no sense to hope for the best case scenario, knowing you will live in dread of it possibly going the other way.

The other thing you can try to do is arrange a "third option." Can you get a break, even a short one, so you can get some rest and make this decision under less psychological pressure?

My dad was diagnosed with a clot in his leg when I was 17 and was told they wanted to amputate. He said "Can't we try something else first?" He was told they could, but odds were poor it would work. He wanted to try it anyway. He got to keep his leg.

If there is some way to say "no" to all the worst case scenarios -- to get some breathing room and try to make a saner decision -- that is the way to go.

I hope that makes some sense. It may not be very well explained.