[throwawayy109]

I have read somewhere that programmers are especially subject to sociopathy. Or rather, a lot of successful sociopaths grow up to be programmers. I believe the draw is the tiny rewards when program compiles and executes. At least for me personally.

I grew up a happy child in a middle class home and the symptoms didn't manifest until when I was 17. Looking back, I started a pattern of petty crimes such as shoplifting, sabotaging school computer, spamming teachers' inboxes, stealing answers to exams. I had 3 ultimatums from school. Because nobody understood computers at the time, I did complete my high school and got into a relatively good college for CS.

Just before graduation, my friend whom I bullied emotionally for 4 months attempted commit suicide. This is when I started to realize what I have become. I consider myself lucky because of the latent manifestations of sociopathic behaviors, which exempts me from further punitive conditioning from society forces.