[pasbesoin]

You know that feeling when half your mind is filling up the spare moments with the thought/feeling, "I'm screwing myself, here."

Yeah.

Whether you're "doing the right thing", "paying your dues", or just fighting your instincts and hoping that eventually, he/she will come to like you the same way.

One of my greatest challenges in life, has been to fight the messaging that put me on that track -- or the delusion I initiated. And, figuring out which it is and to what extent.