[rickdale]

Thank you! I love it, "midnight to midnight." I know it will get easier. Today, honestly, that seems impossible, but tomorrow I WILL have my second day in a row for the first time in 11 years... and I will look to your comment for motivation. I like that I have no idea how huge it is, because thats what I believe deep down.

[philiphodgen]

I watched a nephew go -- in one year -- from "I don't think we are going to see him alive again" to a man who you would utterly trust with your child's life.

I would expect similar transformations for you. You will not be the old @rickdale, just improved. You will be a completely new man.

[rickdale]

Thats awesome. Congrats to your nephew and you and your family for sticking with him. Addiction is not easy; with marijuana people tend to push it to the side, but its just as important as the other drugs like opiates. Maybe not as addictive, but I need rehab, thats how I feel, so I just have to stay clean to avoid that type of repercussion. Realistically, because I have been so successful in the industry, NO ONE, even my mom (love you mom) would tell me I have a problem, but I do. And its tough on the soul to know that I have that type of problem.

The best I have ever felt was when I beat the addiction and took 6 weeks off when I entered college. First fall break I got hooked on the ganja again, and really thats been the story of my life since. But I had this thought that I literally just have to do nothing to get back to feeling that way. And for now, I feel like the terminator, "I'll be back." ha.

Seriously tho, thanks for your comments. Means the world to me. Funny how your nephew getting clean can flow into hn and affect users like me that are real humans with real lives.