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Not laughing -- nothing wrong with getting mental help. Foot doctors, heart doctors, brain doctors; they all help fix you up if there's a problem.

If you haven't talked to a professional (psychologist or psychiatrist) lately, go (or have a friend or relative on your behalf) seek one out and make an appointment before you do anything else. If you explain your situation on the phone, they may be able to squeeze you in for an appointment right away.