[Psychthowaway]

Thing to understand is, if you tell someone you are a sociopath they dissociate with you more or less immediately.

I know this because it happened about two weeks ago. I was with a group of friends and we were discussing things and I brought the topic up to see what their response was. It was generally met with "no way you aren't," "only serial killers are like that" etc... but in the end the whole thing just became morose. I heard later that the other couples had gone to breakfast the next morning without me, and that the bulk of the conversation was about how everyone really got freaked out about it and didn't really know how to deal with me now.

When I talked with my wife about it a long time ago she basically said "Well, I had my suspicions but now that I know it's real I can't ignore it." It basically made her question every interaction we had. She said it turned into living with some kind of robot, where she didn't know what was real and what wasn't.

It taints literally everything once people know about it. So it's not in my long term interest to be open about that fact.

[clouddrover]

> if you tell someone you are a sociopath they dissociate with you more or less immediately.

So? Why shouldn't they?

> So it's not in my long term interest to be open about that fact.

If you're not willing to be up front with people then it's disingenuous to complain about it being tiring. You say you deliberately manipulate people but that you're also unwilling to change that. You're making a deliberate choice. If you refuse to make a different choice then there's no point complaining.