[pryelluw]

I used to feel the same way. What changed? My brother died. Dropped dead. I realized that life is not only short but fragile.

I started to work on improving my life one step at a time. Wanting things to happen overnight but knowing that takes time. Sometimes losing faith but never losing focus on the end goal. I want to to not waste my life. Forget being smart or doing something big. I don't want to regret wasting it.

Ive recently realized that things worth doing are worth doing well. That means its going to take time before anything good happens. Having patience is paying off.

I do stumble. Sometimes choosing to not work and relax. Whatever. My way to deal with this is to not see this as a loss but as an inconvenience. I can still (and often do) work for 10 minutes after wasting an hour or two. Its better than nothing.

Lastly, if you want to accomplish something noteworthy, go and jump off the empire state building. If you want to do something worth doing, look inside and figure out what makes you tick. Then go do it. Its not wether you can or cant. Its wether you want or not. Good luck.

[epalmer]

pryelluw Sorry to hear that your brother died. More than a decade ago I had 4 way by-pass. The doctors told me they thought I could die any minute. Waiting for the doctors to take me to the operating room I had a conversation with God where I asked God if I would survive. I was told yes, that it was not about me and was about the kids.

It took me a few years to figure out what was meant by the conversation. You see I have two kids. I came to realize that it was about more than my kids. So now I work at a University after working at a credit card company and I volunteer for programs that help youth. Mostly STEM related activities like FIRST Robotics.

>If you want to do something worth doing, look inside and figure out what makes you tick.

This is so true. I used to think I needed to volunteer in ways that were public or the opportunities provided by my employer or friends. Once I got over that I searched for opportunities that were aligned with my skills and talents. So I work with STEM and more.

[pryelluw]

Thank you. Thats amazing. People here talk about disruption and changing the world with some silly SaaS. You are the one actually doing it. Im glad you are.

[sverige]

Yes, I agree. I do not spend all my Saturday evenings in this state. In fact, it's quite rare, and 99% of the time, I am very content and reasonably focused on accomplishing good things for my family, friends, and society at large.

P.S. I am very sorry to hear that you lost your brother. That must be painful.

[pryelluw]

Thank you. I wish you the best of luck. I mean it.

[vkreso]

Thank you for this, it resonated quite well in me.

[pryelluw]

You are welcome. Im glad it did.