[1dundundun]

Your depression and hatred of your current role is impacting your energy and the impression you're making on people. Perceptive people pick up on that, especially face to face. Change your outlook and also push for critical feedback when they reject you. You have nothing to lose by asking every person you interact with in the process for feedback after they've passed on you. Some will ignore your request and some will offer you some actionable advice. Change your outlook. It's going to work out. Good luck.