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My verbal communication is basically non-existence. I struggle even with remote work (I've worked remotely previously), and finding remote work is extremely hard anyway. And basically impossible for someone who can't hold a Skype conversation.

What upsets me is that I harbour no dislike to people without autism. I don't understand a lot of your jokes. I don't understand a lot of your interests. But I try to be friendly in my own way. I try to smile when you say something that isn't funny.

But I don't get that same respect back. People rather simply reject me.

"He's weird".

"You need to work on your communication skills".

Fucks me off because I know people who are deaf in tech who can hardly talk and I've never heard someone say they need to work on their communication skills. Because they do.

I'm fed up with trying to be normal so people don't think I'm weird. And I'm fed up and trying to fit into "the culture". And I don't want to shoot some pool at lunch, I want to be left alone.

I just want people treat me with the same respect I treat them for being different to me.

So honestly yeah I am pissed off. I'm homeless now thanks to this constant shit. I can't even explain how fed up I am of being rejected for such a stupid reason.