[throwAwayXYZ68]

Op here:

Thank you everyone for your input and over all support! This kind of support -and even "tough love"- reminds me why I love being a member of this community.

You're right, reading about people changing the world, and SF salaries with my school bubble distorted my vision.

I will send an email to the company that said will wait for me, and continue to apply elsewhere and accept the first decent offer (where I can get experience with a compensation that would let me pay for rent and food).

I will also try to do some self-help using the materials shared here and try to fight off the dark feelings.

I will also probably tap into my savings and move back to the city where I used to live ASAP.

Thank you again all for your support. I know it is not resolved, but at least now I know what I need to do.