[armenarmen]

First gigs often suck, they don't know how good you are yet, so the don't let you touch the awesome stuff. Cool firms won't hire juniors? Well go hack some of that shit with these guys until you got a year or 2 under your belt, then you won't be able to keep firms away from you.

On the depression side, I'm just getting out of some shit like that. A couple things that helped: Sun bathing, sounds silly and vain or whatever but most people are vitamin D difficient

A bit of exercise: ride a bike or walk for 20 minutes a day. This is easy, and just enough to get blood moving and what not.

If you drink, take a month off of booze.

36 hour fasts every other weak. Basically dinner on day 1 no food day 2 breakfast on day 3. It sucks while you're doing but it'll keep your head straight for the next couple days.

There's probably more shit that I've tried, but I do the above on and off. Try one out?