[tumbling_stone]

This is exactly how I had assessed my situation. I had been largely depressed for the entire duration of my college, and no matter what I did I simply couldn't come out of it. However, with a slight improvement in the circumstances I could get back on track. But, it was just getting back on track and I realized that if the circumstances were to change I would be back to my state being depressed. I was so scared of going back to that fucked up state that I decided to radically change my thinking and behavior patterns until I could stomach the the nastiest crap hurled at me. Now I wouldn't say that I have any super powers even though it has been more than two years since I made that resolve, but I sure as hell am more happy and productive than ever in my life. Surprisingly, it's the practice of stoic philosophy (to me it means Karma Yoga, pioneered in the book Bhagwat Geeta, which bears uncanny resemblance to the stoic philosophy pioneered by Seneca and Markus Aurelius) that has helped stabilize my ever confused mind.