| I enjoy writing code somehow but i think the big issue is, that as a software engineere you don't have the feeling that it is a proper job (at least for me). What i'm doing, i enjoy enough, i have somewhat enough freedom but often enough you bump into your cage wall out of glass. Than you realize, that what you are doing is just a job and the only reason you are doing it, is because of the money. Of course you could have a job in a factory with low wage, standing and working all day long instead of having a high payed job sitting in front of a computer and doing what you enjoy doing somehow. But after all it is a job. It is a non fulfilling thing. Something to spend your time with, something the society approved of and appreciated it enough thru good money. But one day you realize that and still go to work because why would you write code all day long for some software which doesn't solve a problem? And with problem i mean something meaningful. But it doesn't help. Our society could be perfect but it doesn't want to be and you only look at it from a distance while walking home from your job and feeling more or less entertained from what you did 8-10 hours long. I don't hate my job, its easy enough, enjoyable enough but that is basically it. And that is with all whats happening in a lifetime anyway. |