[kobigurk]

I'll reiterate like almost everyone - I think you're doing extremely important work.

The bigger question is - is it what you want to do? You might be really good at what you do right now, but you may actually want to code - for various reasons that are yours.

If that's what you want, I'd first suggest - don't try to take it all at once. It's a hard task even for experienced developers. From the top of my head - a good way to get in might be writing tests. Maybe you could partner with a current developer to write tests for him and that way get a glimpse into a specific module.

If you're not into actually writing code, I'd try to understand why you feel you're not at the same level. If it's because of other people's attitudes, well, that's not good!