| I've been through a sort of same situation. I became lead product manager of the #1 brazil's startup, 1 month after that, I was fired because I was too depressed and couldn't handle what I achieved. It's because I got burned-out (due to the trash tech culture). I felt like not recognizing myself as the guy who achieved the most vertical growth curve in the company. And I was sure I couldn't do it anymore in any place else. I was sad thinking about the past, "how good I was" and much more sad thinking about "how good I will never be again". Depressed people forget to live the present, they just think about past and future, it generates a lot of fear, avoidance, procrastination... you are simply putting all your energy where it can't help you. The present time is your life, live it! The Sun rises everyday. I remember what liberates me about fear was read the phrase: "Until now, you survived the worst days of your life." You are strong enough to keep surviving. And think, I know you really don't wanna die, it just seems the only way to reach peace, but it's not. I like to think the Ironborns: "What is dead, may never die!" You have only one life, you can always give up and try again every day. (you're already dead, huh?) This death thing I'm talking about it's like a germans like to think: "Don't take life so serious, you will not escape alive". Talk to your wife, be open, don't be afraid. If she doesn't understand your situation, what you suffering and doesn't support you, leave her. You deserve better. Try to remove fear from your life. Fear are ruining your career, your dreams, your relationship. Life is a miracle, don't waste your time, follow your dreams. It's real, you can believe you will succeed, you can believe you will fail, know what? What you believe will become true. Seems like some guru shit but it's true, I know, you will know. Live the now, fuck the rest. (sorry my bad english) |