[darpa_escapee]

> So if you have found yourself relapsing, and think that any control over your own actions has vanished overnight?

No one in this thread is claiming this and I certainly am not.

If your frame of mind, attitude and inclination have shifted so far from what 'makes sense', i.e. staying sober after proving that you're incapable of using without losing control, then pretending it isn't a big deal to use once isn't helpful. It is detrimental. An addict's mind will want to find any excuse to minimize away the problems of using, and if you're at the point where you've willingly used once, you've already started going down that rabbit hole.

> I'd do almost anything to avoid going into full on withdrawal

So would a lot of people. The best way to avoid going through withdrawals after using is to keep on using, hence why a relapse is a problem.