[nateweiss]

This doesn't directly address your question I suppose, but one thing that I have found to de-stress myself in times like this is to take a moment to consider the achievements you've made (with no formal training, etc). You're clearly super competent, can solve all sorts of problems, and a natural leader. This is great for you long-term. You will most likely have tons of great job opportunities in the future, which will most likely allow you to have the lifestyle you wish in the future. To me anyway, that can be a de-stressing line of thought, because while your current situation may be stressful, you can genuinely look at it and say that it is temporary (how temporary, I don't know). Even if the stress may be somewhat baked into your job now, you'll be able to address it in the future by getting yourself an awesome position. Easier to shake the present off if you realize you're in for a great future.

[zaf]

That's a great comment and life advice. Thanks for that.