[a3n]

I'd like to know too, did you call? And if you didn't, don't give up, you can still call. It's so easy to take a minor setback and think "yeah, that's me, and why bother anyway?" But that's your illness talking.

It is worth it to try. And it's not that hard. Just call.

You are not at all worthless, you're just ill. Unfortunately the nature of your illness damages your ability to see that. It's one of the most vicious of cycles.

Look at all the people in this thread who are encouraging you to get help, many of us suffering from the same illness you have. You're getting a lot of different advice, but all of it is resting on the idea to take steps, because it's worth it. Because you're worth it.