[hollander]

Several months ago I saw a documentary about people who have suicidal thoughts. They followed several people who were in contact with a suicide help line, either by phone or by chat, with their approval, sometimes anonymized.

What was new to me was that they only could think of committing suicide. It was a major thought throughout everything they did. Like a major depression is something completely different from being depressed, this seemed like major suicidal. One woman who was in her 30s decided to get a daughter hoping her thougts would disappear when she had someone to take care of. That didn't happen.

When her daughter grew up, she decided not to commit suicide because it would be cruel to her daughter. She had a good job, a nice husband, a good life, with money, car, nice house, a social life and in many ways a better life than I have, but still she wanted to kill herself. It was in every thought she had. I cannot explain it, you have to see and hear her explain it. It was completely new to me. She still lived when the documentary was on TV, but I'm not sure how long she will live.